Causes
Depression…It’s spinning around in my head, Constantly demanding attention. I’m sitting here not doing anything. Thinking constantly what is causing this. Rejection, boredom, or isolation? I feel like I’ve been rejected, my mind is going two ways on the issue. One side says, “Just wait and don’t jump to conclusions” while the other side says, “Why did you do that? You already know the response”. While being torn in two, I debate admitting defeat and trying to cover it back up. I begin to gain the courage to say no. I force myself to leave it up; telling myself it doesn’t matter now. I tell myself that it could still be any answer, but I still continue stressing about it. Boredom could also be a factor. I haven’t been working and it’s a new thing for me to face. I’ve worked every summer since 2009, and all of a sudden I have nothing to do all day but watch Youtube. It makes me miss work and school; I need s...