Finally!

We are currently in the age of technology.  Now everyone has cell phones, computers, and even tablets now.  That creates numerous new opportunities to meet new people from around the world and keep in contact with everyone. We can talk with people in real time anywhere.   Now I'm 23 so I know that I mostly grew up in this age but I know that it used to be drastically different. Before cell phone we used home phones to talk, maybe email or AIM to communicate.  Or letters have been used for the longest time.  Back when letters were a thing, it would take days just to communicate with some in 1 letter.  Heck, even now people are separated for months or years from their family and they can push through it.  But the younger generations expect something different.  Where am I going with this? I'm curious  about what impact this increase in communication this will have on people and future generations. Now in 2016, it's common to text people daily and even expect responses in

I felt better, but yet still feel empty.  When everything seems to be going great, I still feel unbearable loneliness and emptiness. They said just give it time and I need to wait.  I understand that, and yet my heart doesn't.  after everything I've been through, my heart might be breaking. Everyday I just strive to stay above the surface, trying to hold back tears.  I've never gone through this, so I don't know what to do.  Maybe this is for the better for the long run. I don't want to hurt anyone in the process, and hopefully its they don't want to hurt anyone either. I'm trying to feel better, but my feeling better means hurting the others. and if I want to make them happy I have to learn to suffer.    I don't want things to change and yet the suffering is unbearable. I'd much rather suffer for my unconditional love for others, rather than end my suffering completely. Even if I have to suffer in silence.