I feel this lump

I feel this lump in my throat

I think I made a mistake
Of course my anxiety is having a field day
I'm trying to steer myself in the right direction, but I don't have full control of the wheel.

I don't want to go to sleep and wake up tomorrow, I want time to stop.   I don't want to die, I just don't want to deal with tomorrow.

Fearing for the worst, my mind prepares, I'm grasping at straws trying to pull myself back into reality.

I'm starting to getmore sleepy.
I knew I will eventually fall asleep,  but is there something I can do......


of course not

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