What is happening in my mind?

My mind

When my body is relaxed, my mind goes crazy.

Constant thoughts in my head, most of which I can’t control.

As I’m bored I let my mind wander.

Some good thoughts and bad thoughts, all ready for me.

When I put my music on, it’s like I put in the key.

My mind races, and a story starts forming.

When the music changes, so does the story.

It goes up and down, constantly repeating and changing.

I feel my soul as it is affected by its own creations.

Feeling happy or sad, angry or excited.

Then I realize how long I’ve wasted.

Daydreaming all day doesn’t help me one bit.

Feeling partially ashamed at my special gift.

I force myself out of it and do my daily tasks

By the end of the day as I fall in bed.

I start thinking, is this a gift or a curse?

I feel like I’m living 2 lives, one outside and one in my mind.

Then I remember, being an adult means living outside one’s mind.

As long as I can remember I’ve had this gift, being able to create.

One thought turns into an extravagant story.  Like a grain of sand becoming a whole beach.

As I fall asleep I begin hoping.  Hoping that tomorrow I can daydream a little longer.